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Overwhelm, perspective and joy

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The last year has been rough for my family.  Since last September, my mom has undergone radation therapy, surgery, biopsies, and more imaging tests than she’d like to remember.  And she’s now just started an antibody therapy for this cancer that continues to refuse to behave.

Also since last September, I started a new day job, made it through another Stitches West, was published in Classic Elite’s web-letter, and added a new line to Phydeaux.

I’m feeling a little overwhelmed right now.

But cannot wait to spend time with my parents next and the following week.  I can’t wait to see them both in person and to actually be on hand to help as they settle into new routines with Mom’s treatments and tests at the center.

Even as I’m super overloaded wit my day job and not able to focus at all on Phydeaux, it’s Mom’s health that gives me the motivation and will to keep moving forward.  But let’s face it, yes, work and business are both important, but nowhere near as important as those we love.  That perspective is what really keeps me going this week as I work long hours at an insane pace.

I’m looking forward to a little downtime with my folks, during which time I hope to finish a couple of new patterns.  It’s been a long time since we’e had a new Phydeaux knitting pattern.  Too long!

I keep trying to slow down so that I can focus on the present.  It’s just difficult given too many deadlines and our circumstances.  But being able to find joy in the NOW is both essential and elusive.  Nevertheless, that’s my goal.  I think it will be easier once I see Mom face to face next week.

And with that, I’m off to engage in my new nightly focus:  getting to bed – and sleep – early.  I hope to share photos from the wilds of my parents’ kiwi farm next week.

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  • Vicki Potter June 15, 2012, 8:15 AM

    Spending time with loved ones, sick & well, is something we never regret … ever.

    Have a wonderful weekend with your parents.

  • brenda June 15, 2012, 10:04 PM

    You’re so right, Vicki! Thank you and I hope you’re doing really great. xo

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